It's Final....a week ago. June 11

Some Memories of DeMitt and I
New york

Christmas Day at Powder

Hawaii

Him teaching to long board

With family

Nieces and nephews

mom getting sealed

I put these pictures up because they are some of my favorites.

So I finally mustered up the courage to call the courts today to see if the divorce was final. And with no surprise...it was. When I found out, I was actually taking my sisters dog for a walk in the park. I sat on the grass under a tree and make the phone call. When I found out, I just laid back and let the tears roll down my face. It makes me sad for the kids I won't have, the pets that are divided, the memories that we made, the ones that we won't make and most of all not being with the person I planned on spending the rest of my life with. It's crazy...on my Wedding day I never thought in a million years I would be in the situation I am in. You think you will have some rough times, but that you will both be able to work through it. I knew Demitt had trouble following through with things ....but I NEVER thought that it would have applied to me. I remember when Demitt and I would get into arguments while we were dating and while we were married and he would just want to leave. I would beg him to stay and work through things....maybe that was his way to try to get out of something that he felt like would never last. But stayed cause I begged. who the hell knows. I'm tired of my life from 4 to 10.